So I've been thinking about quitting my job - talked it over with my dad and I'm not really sure where to go with all this. I mean there are pluses and minuses about my job (as there are with all jobs) but I guess my biggest complaint is that I'm teaching a lot of boring stuff. I don't think it'll get much better anywhere else I go but I'm thinking of asking my workplace for less hours and more pay (since I get paid crap right now considering my hours). We'll see how it plays out.
Otherwise, things have been mediocre at best. I'm so thankful that I have my accountability group though.
For those of you that don't know, I've been meeting up with two friends every week and basically we just get together and talk about our walk with God and just about everything else (how our week was, what's going on at work, what's going on in our lives, etc etc) and it's just been awesome. There are so many insights that I've been able to come across and I think that when one is able to have open-hearted discussions about God and just random things in our daily lives that relate to Him, it becomes what God intended Christianity to be. I dunno how to describe it really. It's nice, insightful, satisfying and most of all, it really helps me reflect on my faith.
I always took my being Christian for granted and at this point, never really thought about what kind of Christian I was. I always looked down on other legalistic Christians who would constantly judge others and really just look down on other people. Yet, here I am, guilty of the same attitude that I looked down on others for because I was looking down on them. Trying to read the Bible more and pray more has made me realize how little control we have of our lives and how much we need God. I don't know, I don't really feel like going into too much more detail about it at this point when I don't really have a clear idea of what I want to say, but to sum everything up, I'm so thankful for a God that's so loving and good, to be born into a Christian household with supporting parents and siblings, an accountability group that really does just that - hold me accountable for my faith, and most of all, for being given the privilege to go to Heaven by doing absolutely nothing but believing in Him.
I always felt that by talking about my faith would estrange people from me and it honestly isn't fair. I've always felt like with friends, especially close friends, one should be able to talk about things that are important to oneself. I mean I don't hesitate to talk about really controversial issues like abortion and all that, but when it comes to my faith as a Christian, I always feel like I have to walk on eggshells for fear of offending the other person. It's so unfortunate that this has become the case and like reverse discrimination, it has become to a point where to a certain extent, I can't be myself.
One thing that I thought was cool over the summer with my co-workers was that we were able to silently pray before meals. There wasn't an uncomfortable silence or anything, it was just what some of us did and others didn't. Some people simply started eating first, and others would pray a quick prayer of thanks and then start eating. It didn't really matter who was praying or anything like that.
Anyway, that's basically how things have been going for me.
O yeah, and I got recruited to play the cello at church. For those that don't know, I don't play cello. I've never played in front of people until last week. I play viola. But we don't have any cellos and we have 4 violins so I sort of mentioned in passing that I would be able to play if I had to and then I found myself with a cello....... -_-;; I guess I spoke too soon. I don't mind though, it's good for me. ^_^
Hm. Otherwise, there isn't much going on. All the summer teachers have left except for one and I actually prefer it this way. It's much quieter though it doesn't mean that I'm necessarily getting more work done but at least there are less people around in the teachers room.
Gah it's 1:30am. Time for bed.
