List of what I want to accomplish while I'm not working

I'm so excited to be done with work that I have a list of things I want to do *hopefully* on a daily basis.

1. Study for the GRE

- do practice problems for the Literature in English Subject test

- do practice problems for the Regular GRE

- memorize vocab

2. Read - though this will mainly be on the subway, I hope to read a lot

3. Write

- work on my book

- fix my papers to send out to my professors

4. Sleep regularly

- I have so many plans to have a regular schedule but I have to come up with a set schedule of things I want to accomplish by the end of the day. Hopefully this will work out.

5. Work out

- Running and muay thai. Hopefully a combination of the two

6. See Seoul

- Hopefully while I try to stake out different places to study, I'll be able to see Seoul. I plan on going hiking and studying at the top of a hill in a pagoda. Maybe I'll even pack a lunch... heeeee

Man the freedom that I'll have is just so enticing that I really can't wait! 2 more weeks 2 more weeks 2 more weekssssssssssss

Work

OMG

I can't wait for work to be over. X.x I think I'm really really burnt out and there's just so much that I want to do that I can't that it's really frustrating for me to sit through work.

I got asked to work an extra week so I still have 2 more weeks. X.x NO MOOOOOOOORE

Taking October off so I can take the GRE and rest. I'm so excited.

Marriage

It seems that there are so many people that want to spend the rest of their lives together and get married.

Honestly, at this point in my life, I don't really understand it. Perhaps its the lack of having a boyfriend and the love of freedom that I feel this way, but I really can't imagine settling down. The thought creeps me out. I mean in a sense, I can sense the excitement of starting a new life with someone and how learning more about that person each day (their daily habits and what not) can be interesting for a while, but it gets tiring after a while, doesn't it? X.x

I don't know, I think that I'm still too immature to even think about marriage. I can't even keep my room clean!

That aside, there are many things that I have to think about. I can't wait until work ends I have some chill time. I'm debating whether or not I want to just take the entirety of October off and just chill (get ready for grad school, take the GRE and the KLPT or something - its the Korean Language Proficiency Test I think). I dunno perhaps I should work and be productive... haha we'll see. ^_^

Running and Google Chrome

I went running today and it was awesome. I hate running but today I just needed to exercise to let off some steam. Did I mention yet that I hate work? It's such bullcrap. But I'm trying to be less negative so we'll leave it at that. I'm going to post on my secret blog (aka a word document) all the reasons why my workplace is a terrible place to work at. However, for here, I shall post of happy things.

Like running. So as I was saying, I hate running. It's the worst thing ever - especially because I get tired really fast, I have no endurance and it's just plain boring. However, being that I had all this excess energy, I decided to pull a Nike and just do it.

I ran for 40 minutes (which is an all time record for me since I usually last like 5 minutes and then walk the rest of the way back and then tell people that I went running for 20 minutes -_-) and I sprinted probably the last 50 yards or so. It was just so exhilarating and I feel thinner! (though I highly doubt it). At any rate, I think exercise is so completely underrated and it's quite unfortunate that it is because people would just be so much happier with exercise. I must say though, volleyball is so much better.

That aside, I've decided that Google Chrome sucks. Although it is faster and more responsive than either Internet Explorer or Mozilla Firefox, it still has its issues.

1. It can't open PDFs. With my slowass computer at work, what ends up happening is, everything on the dang thing starts lagging because Google Chrome tries to open up Adobe Reader but not the actual PDF file. So it's irritating.

2. Randomly Google Chrome will crash. It's usually when I've downloaded an attachment like a Word document and then I get that irritating message: "Whoa! Google Chrome has crashed. Restart now?" WHYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!?! Just open the dang attachment. My goodness.

3. It doesn't automatically delete things/doesn't have an option to automatically delete things. Like downloaded files that you would normally just open. I have to actively delete my history and all that (not that it's that big of a deal) but I mean I'm sure eventually it all gets backed up and takes up a lot of space, no? I dunno, I just delete it all. I guess more than anything, I'm paranoid about like spyware, adware, hackers and the like. Meh~ I suppose it isn't that big of a deal though.

I'm thinking of converting to Firefox but it takes foreeeeeeeeeever to load. I dunno maybe I'll try like one of the Mac browsers like Safari or something. Bleh~

I Quit!

So I told my workplace that I was quitting, which means that as of 10/1, I have no job! Hallelujah! I guess I shouldn't be so happy, but just the idea of being able to relax a little (finally) is just so exciting for me. I have a bunch of plans that *hopefully* will go through. If not, meh~ so it goes, so it goes.

I have to start applying to other places but because most places will probably want me to work right away, I'm planning on waiting until later to apply since I know I'm pretty marketable. :D Maybe I'll apply to Princeton Review. I'm thinking of trying my hand at teaching English though (I know I said I didn't want to before because I'm not completely confident in it) but I mean if I have lesson plans from the company, I don't think it'll be too bad. (I hope I'm not being too optimistic... haha)

Anyway, with that said, I just hope things will be ok! :)

Now I have to create a grad school schedule so that I can hurry up and get everything together to apply! ^_^

Teaching

I'm an idiot

I never realized that with teaching there are several components - where the most imporant component is assessment. Why? Because without assessing what your students have learned, there's no way of knowing whether or not your teaching method is effective. In other words, I've been blindly trying to force these kids to "analyze" these passages without actually trying to see if they actually knew how to apply what I was telling them to apply.

I fail.

At least now I know. This explains why none of my students improved over the summer. I'm a terrible teacher... X.x my goodness

Well now that I know, I guess I just need to improve myself. Ugh this is terrible though, I've been going through 10 monthes of teaching, expecting my kids to just apply what I told them. There are very few kids that actually did... this is terrible!

O well at least I can apply this to my new workplace ^_^ hehe

New Job?

I've been debating this for quite some time but more and more I've been seeing a divide at work between what I want to do and what is being required of me. I don't mind teaching AP Psychology but given the transient nature of teaching in academies in Korea, I prepped a bunch of things only to find that no one actually signed up for the freaking class. I guess I can upkeep but I just feel like it's so unnecessary.

I've been asked to help out with a lot of the applications - a very necessary but tedious part of what my workplace does... something that I have moral issues with. I think that this is where my issues with my academy have become to a point where I can't just ignore it and let things slide. Perhaps it is now time for me to move on.

That said, the prospect of job hunting again is a little bleh because I've heard the horror stories of these other places and I don't know if the other places will be any better. I don't mind the workaholic attitude if I'm only supposed to be there to teach classes and the prep time is completely up to me. I just feel like because I'm on salary, they keep me here. Ugh.

I've decided to leave on a good note though so now I have start mentally and physically preparing myself to work my ass off for the next week or so. *shrug*

Motivation

I'm finally starting to buckle down and trying to get things done. I'd started to take on this attitude of apathy when it came to doing things that I had to do and my procrastination took a turn for the worst. I don't know but I've realize that with things that I really don't care about, I really don't care and it will take me forever to finish doing it. This unfortunately also relates to work. I think that one of the hardest things for me to accept is that with any job, there are going to be things that I like and things that I don't like that I have to do. I just hope that with being a professor, there will be considerably more that I like and very little that I don't like.

I'm hopefully slowly but surely taking the path towards diligence. X.x haha It's so hard to do because honestly, there's so many things that distract me from the "things I have to do" such as anime, reading books and even stupid things like facebook. What's worse is I have justification for reading (though anime and facebook is a little weaker). Meh! I think the most important thing is to set goals and schedules and follow through with them, though this is much easier said than done.

With that said, I shall now continue reading my Pscyhology textbook! (I've been enlisted to teach AP Psychology this year. If I move, the place I'm looking at has a work schedule of MTThF so I will be free on Wednesdays to teach if I need to). I hope to keep my weekends free.

Being an adult I realized that when it comes to being motivated and getting things done, it isn't a matter of doing-it-because-I-will-get-in-trouble-with-the-parents anymore but more of a I-really-should-do-this-for-my-own-good. The problem with that is that I really don't care or at least it's low enough on my priority list that I'll hope it eventually will go away. Which is never the case.

So it goes with being/becoming an adult.