Bored with myself

I think I once had an entry about how I bore myself sometimes...

Now is one of those times.

Time

Time just seems to be slipping away. I don't know what it is but I feel like I have no grasp of time whatsoever.

I suppose things are getting better but every time I say that, I backslide. Will I ever have enough time to do everything I want to do?

For some reason the word incessant comes to mind. Not sure what it is... time is very obviously incessant. I suppose it's the constant push of time and the constant reminder that the clock is ticking. It's quite unfortunate really. I wish I could stop time now. At this point in my life. Not everything is perfect. But I like where things are going. Eh. I wonder if it's a fear of the future. Or perhaps things just pass by me too quickly. Hm.

Ah, my close enemy, procrastination

"If you fail to believe you will procrastinate or become idealistic about how awesome you are at working hard and managing your time you never develop a strategy for outmaneuvering your own weakness."

From here.

In other words, I have to learn the fine art of deceiving myself.

Honestly though, to a certain extent, I still think it's laziness and a lack of willpower. I feel like the article just packaged it to seem like it's something else (so that it is somehow more forgivable). Eh. So now I'm motivated again. ^_^ heh~

Oh, and thank you Milan Kundera, I'm back on track with that too. :)

迷った

When I'm about to take that final plunge, I discover that perhaps I'm going the wrong way. There are things that I enjoy but perhaps I'm just trying to become a person that I realistically cannot become. I wonder if I'm just deceiving myself.

あ~~ There's just too much to do and too many things to consider. 自由になりたいけどけっこう難しい。　それにしても、自由は何だ? も~ 知らないよ~