is that I've gotten to be a better judge at how long it'll take for me to do something.
Which means that I take procrastination to its maximum potential.
What's worse is that I'm usually too optimistic about my time because I don't take into account setbacks.
So usually I'm late with what I intend to do on time.
-_-
In other words, I still am a sucky judge of time, I just think I've gotten better at it.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
My Personality x2
I took that quiz again and now I'm more 'auditory' than visual apparently.
Results:
Auditory : 57%
Visual : 42%
Left : 33%
Right : 66%
You show a slight right-hemisphere dominance with a moderate preference for auditory processing, an unusual and somewhat paradoxical combination of characteristics.
You are drawn to a random and sometimes nonchalant synthesis of material. You learn as it seems important to a specific situation, and might even develop a resentment of others who attempt to direct your learning down a specific channel.
Your right-hemispheric dominance provides a structure that is only loosely organized and one which processes entire swatches of reality, overlooking details. You are emotional in your reactions and perceptual more than logical in your approach, although you can impose structure and a language base when necessary.
Your auditory preference, on the other hand, implies that you process information sequentially and unidimensionally. This combination of right-brain and auditory modes creates conflict, as you want to process data more rapidly than your natural processes allow.
Your tendency to be creative and free-flowing is accompanied by sufficient ability to organize and be logical, allowing you a reasonable degree of success in a number of different endeavors. You take in information methodically and systematically which can then be synthesized rapidly. In this manner, you manage to function consistently well, although certainly less efficiently than you desire.
You prefer the abstract and are a theoretician at heart while retaining the ability to be practical. You find the symbolism in a great deal of what you encounter and are something of a "mystic."
With regards to your lifestyle, you have the mentality which would be good as a philosopher, writer, journalist, or instructor, or possibly as a systems designer or social worker. Perhaps most important is your ability to "listen to your inner voice" as a mode of skipping over unnecessary steps to achieve your goals.
Results:
Auditory : 57%
Visual : 42%
Left : 33%
Right : 66%
You show a slight right-hemisphere dominance with a moderate preference for auditory processing, an unusual and somewhat paradoxical combination of characteristics.
You are drawn to a random and sometimes nonchalant synthesis of material. You learn as it seems important to a specific situation, and might even develop a resentment of others who attempt to direct your learning down a specific channel.
Your right-hemispheric dominance provides a structure that is only loosely organized and one which processes entire swatches of reality, overlooking details. You are emotional in your reactions and perceptual more than logical in your approach, although you can impose structure and a language base when necessary.
Your auditory preference, on the other hand, implies that you process information sequentially and unidimensionally. This combination of right-brain and auditory modes creates conflict, as you want to process data more rapidly than your natural processes allow.
Your tendency to be creative and free-flowing is accompanied by sufficient ability to organize and be logical, allowing you a reasonable degree of success in a number of different endeavors. You take in information methodically and systematically which can then be synthesized rapidly. In this manner, you manage to function consistently well, although certainly less efficiently than you desire.
You prefer the abstract and are a theoretician at heart while retaining the ability to be practical. You find the symbolism in a great deal of what you encounter and are something of a "mystic."
With regards to your lifestyle, you have the mentality which would be good as a philosopher, writer, journalist, or instructor, or possibly as a systems designer or social worker. Perhaps most important is your ability to "listen to your inner voice" as a mode of skipping over unnecessary steps to achieve your goals.
But what hasn't changed is that I'm kind of off. hahahahaha and I'm still very right-brained. I took this quiz taking less time to think about the answer and just kind of did whatever I felt like. Honestly though, these results are kind of skewed because I've taken the quiz before (but some of the questions were different so it didn't matter). ^_^ hehe This is interesting~
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Humans
One thing I've forgotten as of late is the fact that it doesn't matter how old someone is or what their status is in life, in the end they're all human. I don't know if it's because I've been in Korea for so long (with the whole age deference/acknowledgement thing) but I've started to treat children as children and adults as adults. To a certain extent, there's the "duh" factor because you're obviously not going to talk to a 2nd grade child about your finances or something mundane like that. Or even the weather. I don't know why but I feel like it's specific to adults. And for some reason, it's an interesting topic to talk about with adults.
"It's really cold out there, isn't it?"
"Sure is, Bob."
"Take care and dress warmly!"
"Sure will."
I mean perhaps it's just me because it's almost like a formality in some ways or whatever, but I guess I find it quaint. I wouldn't talk about the weather and tell them to take care if it was someone I didn't care about, y'know? It may just seem to be something to talk about, but I just find it nice. Interestingly enough, I distinctly remember making fun of weather as a topic of conversation when I was younger.
Anyway, going back to the main topic at hand, I used to not care whether the person was young, old, rich, poor, educated, not, interesting, boring, etc. I was able to talk to them as simply a human being. I think that's why some of my students liked me - because I didn't talk down on them. Lately I've been finding that I have been talking down to them and it is not intentional. I've also developed an aversion for talking with older men. This is for another reason that I may talk about on another day. If I feel like it. At any rate, I must remember that it doesn't matter who they, everyone has something interesting to say, it's just a matter of drawing it out of them.
"It's really cold out there, isn't it?"
"Sure is, Bob."
"Take care and dress warmly!"
"Sure will."
I mean perhaps it's just me because it's almost like a formality in some ways or whatever, but I guess I find it quaint. I wouldn't talk about the weather and tell them to take care if it was someone I didn't care about, y'know? It may just seem to be something to talk about, but I just find it nice. Interestingly enough, I distinctly remember making fun of weather as a topic of conversation when I was younger.
Anyway, going back to the main topic at hand, I used to not care whether the person was young, old, rich, poor, educated, not, interesting, boring, etc. I was able to talk to them as simply a human being. I think that's why some of my students liked me - because I didn't talk down on them. Lately I've been finding that I have been talking down to them and it is not intentional. I've also developed an aversion for talking with older men. This is for another reason that I may talk about on another day. If I feel like it. At any rate, I must remember that it doesn't matter who they, everyone has something interesting to say, it's just a matter of drawing it out of them.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
My Personality
Oddly enough, I think other people can tell me more about me than I can. I can tell you what I like doing but usually it depends on my mood. If I'm happy, I'll probably give you a good response. If I'm stressed out, I'll probably get really irritated really quickly (though I realized it's only with my parents. I need to work on that).
So I took a series of right-brain/left-brain quizzes to see which area I fit better. I think I'm more right-brained than left. This means that I'm better at like the visual/audio stuff like drawing and music rather than the logical/verbal stuff like math and writing (this a large over-generalization though because right-brained people can do math, it's just they need to visualize it first). But then again, that's not really the case with me either. They say that right-brained people have a hard time with geometry proofs and I liked those things.
This article was kind of crazy though for me because I had a really hard time trying to see the ballerina spin counterclockwise. But once I got it to spin the other way, it was easy for me to switch back. So does that mean I'm much more right-brained than I initially thought?
This article gave a breakdown in like qualities of either hemisphere:
In the end, it doesn't help me because I feel like I'm a bit of both (I think all people are) and I don't think it's reason for me to suddenly become a musician or artist.... gaaaah none of it helps. It makes me wonder if being a literature professor is the wrong choice for me because apparently I suck with words. I mean yes, in speaking perhaps, but I do enjoy writing......
Anyway I took another quiz and read some more articles on it and I've decided I'm definitely more right-brained than left. However, I do have left-brain qualities so I guess I'm a bit of both? Though mainly right?
I suppose I should pursue my right-brained interests more. I think it makes sense though if you look at my hobbies (they're all art or music related...). Hm.
[edit]
This is one of the coolest quizzes I've ever taken (because when they ask me questions like "are you better at algebra or geometry?" or other questions like "do you follow directions?" I usually don't have a clear answer). This was like an IQ test with no right answers!
Auditory : 52%
Visual : 47%
Left : 36%
Right : 63%
You are moderately right-hemisphere dominant and have even preferences between auditory and visual processing, traits that might make people perceive you as "slightly off balance."
You are most likely to be slightly disorganized, a "dreamer" and a person who focuses more on the end result than the immediate task at hand. You are creative and spontaneous if somewhat lacking in direction and focus. You are a learner who is generally patient and a person for whom time is an ally, not an enemy.
You are more passionate than most people with regard to life and learning and recognize your own intuitive abilities. You have sufficient goal-direction to satisfy yourself and guarantee success without being or feeling driven. You are willing to be reflective about yourself and others without getting lost in rumination.
The balance of your sensory modes allows for both learning and expressive capabilities achieved by few. You are active and "seeing" while retaining an equally strong propensity for being reflective which slows you down a little but allows for a more comprehensive perception and analysis of situations and problems. You do not spend excessive time analyzing since you mostly trust your perceptions.
In all likelihood, you have a tendency to overcommit and cannot understand why others get upset since you operate on a different "time table" than they do. Your organizational abilities are frequently overwhelmed by the stimulation seeking and active nature of your mind as well as by the tendency to create new categories and gloss over details, making categorization and classification almost impossible at times.
To the extent that your career path allows for creativity and abstraction as well as a bit of disorganization, you should find yourself equipped to handle any learning that is required. Your own personal adjustment to your style should come naturally although you are likely to feel frustrated by your own limited discipline and often wonder "Why?"
I feel like this is one of the first personality quiz that was pretty accurate. I mean a lot of them are more or less right (depending on my mood) but this one I think pretty much gets it! I like the "slightly off balance" bit. :)
So I took a series of right-brain/left-brain quizzes to see which area I fit better. I think I'm more right-brained than left. This means that I'm better at like the visual/audio stuff like drawing and music rather than the logical/verbal stuff like math and writing (this a large over-generalization though because right-brained people can do math, it's just they need to visualize it first). But then again, that's not really the case with me either. They say that right-brained people have a hard time with geometry proofs and I liked those things.
This article was kind of crazy though for me because I had a really hard time trying to see the ballerina spin counterclockwise. But once I got it to spin the other way, it was easy for me to switch back. So does that mean I'm much more right-brained than I initially thought?
This article gave a breakdown in like qualities of either hemisphere:
| Left Brain | Right Brain |
Logical
Sequential
Rational
Analytical
Objective
Looks at parts
|
Random
Intuitive
Holistic
Synthesizing
Subjective
Looks at wholes
|
Anyway I took another quiz and read some more articles on it and I've decided I'm definitely more right-brained than left. However, I do have left-brain qualities so I guess I'm a bit of both? Though mainly right?
I suppose I should pursue my right-brained interests more. I think it makes sense though if you look at my hobbies (they're all art or music related...). Hm.
[edit]
This is one of the coolest quizzes I've ever taken (because when they ask me questions like "are you better at algebra or geometry?" or other questions like "do you follow directions?" I usually don't have a clear answer). This was like an IQ test with no right answers!
Auditory : 52%
Visual : 47%
Left : 36%
Right : 63%
You are moderately right-hemisphere dominant and have even preferences between auditory and visual processing, traits that might make people perceive you as "slightly off balance."
You are most likely to be slightly disorganized, a "dreamer" and a person who focuses more on the end result than the immediate task at hand. You are creative and spontaneous if somewhat lacking in direction and focus. You are a learner who is generally patient and a person for whom time is an ally, not an enemy.
You are more passionate than most people with regard to life and learning and recognize your own intuitive abilities. You have sufficient goal-direction to satisfy yourself and guarantee success without being or feeling driven. You are willing to be reflective about yourself and others without getting lost in rumination.
The balance of your sensory modes allows for both learning and expressive capabilities achieved by few. You are active and "seeing" while retaining an equally strong propensity for being reflective which slows you down a little but allows for a more comprehensive perception and analysis of situations and problems. You do not spend excessive time analyzing since you mostly trust your perceptions.
In all likelihood, you have a tendency to overcommit and cannot understand why others get upset since you operate on a different "time table" than they do. Your organizational abilities are frequently overwhelmed by the stimulation seeking and active nature of your mind as well as by the tendency to create new categories and gloss over details, making categorization and classification almost impossible at times.
To the extent that your career path allows for creativity and abstraction as well as a bit of disorganization, you should find yourself equipped to handle any learning that is required. Your own personal adjustment to your style should come naturally although you are likely to feel frustrated by your own limited discipline and often wonder "Why?"
I feel like this is one of the first personality quiz that was pretty accurate. I mean a lot of them are more or less right (depending on my mood) but this one I think pretty much gets it! I like the "slightly off balance" bit. :)
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Slavery
Time is my master. I can never grasp it. When I think I have a hold of it, it slips away. Time is not my prey but by trying to understand it, it further eludes my grasps.
Sometimes, I think perhaps I don't want to have an understanding of time. I want to be beyond the boundaries of time and do things in my time. But then when things slip by me, I realize that my time doesn't mean anything. I'm rooted in a current that I don't want to be in.
Thus, I am a slave to time.
Sometimes, I think perhaps I don't want to have an understanding of time. I want to be beyond the boundaries of time and do things in my time. But then when things slip by me, I realize that my time doesn't mean anything. I'm rooted in a current that I don't want to be in.
Thus, I am a slave to time.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Something I don't do
Read manga.
I'm now addicted to 3 series.
Hunter X Hunger
One Piece
Skip Beat!
I wish I had some kind of superhuman power I could use to save people.
I'm now addicted to 3 series.
Hunter X Hunger
One Piece
Skip Beat!
I wish I had some kind of superhuman power I could use to save people.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Functionality
It's irritating when something that's supposed to work, doesn't.
What the heck is wrong with Kindle sometimes?! I mean seriously, there's this line in Othello:
"I will chop her into messes.—Cuckold me!" and the cool thing about Kindle is you can double click a word and the definition will come up. Why the heck won't it let me highlight cuckold?! (it highlights "messes.—Cuckold" instead and says that there's no definition found. OBVIOUSLY MESSES.-CUCKOLD IS NOT A WORD. THERE'S A FREAKING PERIOD AFTER MESSES. eesh). So irritating. I don't care if it's a bug. Now I have to go through the trouble of opening dictionary.com and looking up the freaking word.
What the heck is wrong with Kindle sometimes?! I mean seriously, there's this line in Othello:
"I will chop her into messes.—Cuckold me!" and the cool thing about Kindle is you can double click a word and the definition will come up. Why the heck won't it let me highlight cuckold?! (it highlights "messes.—Cuckold" instead and says that there's no definition found. OBVIOUSLY MESSES.-CUCKOLD IS NOT A WORD. THERE'S A FREAKING PERIOD AFTER MESSES. eesh). So irritating. I don't care if it's a bug. Now I have to go through the trouble of opening dictionary.com and looking up the freaking word.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Addiction
I might be overreacting but I think I can legitimately say that I'm unhealthily addicted to anime/TV shows and my computer. It's 3:20am and I almost finished season 4 of The Big Bang Theory. I tried to stop after two episodes and utterly failed. I don't like the series because it's too episodic but I keep watching it for some reason.
Normally this would be fine for someone who has a relatively free schedule and doesn't work regularly. However, I have a writing sample due pretty much today (I told my professor I'd send it to her) and I'm not done. T.T
So I decided to try and do something about it and looked up on google "how to defeat addiction" and the first thing that came up was how to get rid of a porn addiction. -_-;; I guess it's that bad for some people... Some of the other top search results included a facebook and myspace addiction. I didn't know that it was that bad either. What's weird is that those kinds of things palpably feel like a waste of time whereas with anime and TV shows, I can't tell that time is passing. Interestingly enough, it took the second page to get to the drug and alcohol addictions. You'd think it'd be the other way around.
I remember I was watching this show on the Discovery channel or something about this guy who was addicted to food and he made this point about saying how hard it was to get over his addiction. He made the analogy of someone telling drug addicts that they can only have small doses of the drug that they were addicted to three times a day. I mean that's hard, if not impossible for an addict to do and that's exactly what this guy would have to do because he would need to nourish his body in some way or another. This guy was so fat that people would have to come over and flip him over because he couldn't turn over in bed (and he was completely bedridden). I didn't understand what he was going through when I was watching the program but now I think I get it to a certain extent. I'm not completely dysfunctional if I'm not in front of a computer but it's pretty much all I do when I'm home (unless playing the DS counts as something else - I do do other things though! Like cook...). I have some other hobbies but a vast majority of my time is in front of the computer. This is the case with a lot of people but sometimes I have difficulty stopping. I realized all the more so when I'm stressed out (which I didn't know I got so stressed out but I think I stress a lot more frequently than I realize), which attributes to my insomnia.
At any rate, now it's time for me to stop. We'll see how it goes. ^^
All the websites I looked at were pretty useless and I always felt like addiction was just a matter of the mind (a test of willpower really) so I guess one of the best ways to go about is to just suck it up and do what it takes to stop. I think I need a better grasp on time (which I'm getting better at) and perhaps things will get better.
There was one decent website that had this list where you have to choose 3 things that your addiction really affects (God, family, work, personal hygiene, etc.) and it talked about working on improving those three things. I think that might actually help.
But my goodness The Big Bang Theory is so addictive. I wish it weren't so episodic...
All the websites I looked at were pretty useless and I always felt like addiction was just a matter of the mind (a test of willpower really) so I guess one of the best ways to go about is to just suck it up and do what it takes to stop. I think I need a better grasp on time (which I'm getting better at) and perhaps things will get better.
There was one decent website that had this list where you have to choose 3 things that your addiction really affects (God, family, work, personal hygiene, etc.) and it talked about working on improving those three things. I think that might actually help.
But my goodness The Big Bang Theory is so addictive. I wish it weren't so episodic...
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Voice and thought
I realized (I think I've had this realization before) that I take on the voice and to a certain extent, personality of whatever book/anime/TV series I'm watching. As I was writing a book review (for this other secret blog I have) and I realized I was almost going to talk like Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory. It was horrifying and entertaining at the same time.
I think I might have to be careful about what I watch because it has too big of an effect on me.... But I think it depends on how into it I am.
I also realized that I am oddly attracted to prideful men, i.e. House from House, Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory, Kim GunWoo (the older fussier one) from Beethoven Virus... or perhaps it is their idiosyncrasies that make me interested in them... Captain Jack Sparrow from Pirates of the Caribbean would be another example of odd men that I'm attracted to. I hope this isn't the case in real life because I feel like it'd be irritating to deal with on a day to day basis...
[update]
I realize that my trains of thought are very often interrupted by other thoughts in my head. Like I'll be thinking along for example string of thought A and then all of a sudden, with no connection whatsoever to thought A, I'll start thinking about string of thought C. By string of thought, I don't mean just a single thought "Oh what fine weather we're having today" but "Oh the weather's nice but that one cloud may be an indication of rain in which case I don't want to wear those boots that may stain if it does rain and I get them wet. But if they're waterproof and I do get them wet, it wouldn't matter." Then all of a sudden I think, "If all the puzzles in the world were a derivation of a single puzzle that someone invented a long, long time ago, would we ever be able to find that one source? I wonder if finding all the connecting links to puzzles would lead to that one puzzle."
More often than not, I'll completely and totally forget string of thought A, though this time around, I remembered it.
I also realized that I think thoughts without consciously knowing what they are. To give a hypothetical example, I'll think about the usefulness of soap because of the cleansing action of the bubbles and how because some people think that smearing soap on your hands without making it bubble will still be effective, they created foam soap. But then I'll think, is it really the bubbles that create the cleaning action on your hands? (btw, I don't know if this is true because I don't remember where I heard it so I could be wrong...) And all this time, I won't realize I'm thinking this until somehow, somewhere, I'll be talking to someone about it and remember this random thought I was having and I won't remember the context of it at all.
I wonder if a lot of people do that too. I realized people are much more similar than they realize (though there are obvious differences).
I think I might have to be careful about what I watch because it has too big of an effect on me.... But I think it depends on how into it I am.
I also realized that I am oddly attracted to prideful men, i.e. House from House, Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory, Kim GunWoo (the older fussier one) from Beethoven Virus... or perhaps it is their idiosyncrasies that make me interested in them... Captain Jack Sparrow from Pirates of the Caribbean would be another example of odd men that I'm attracted to. I hope this isn't the case in real life because I feel like it'd be irritating to deal with on a day to day basis...
[update]
I realize that my trains of thought are very often interrupted by other thoughts in my head. Like I'll be thinking along for example string of thought A and then all of a sudden, with no connection whatsoever to thought A, I'll start thinking about string of thought C. By string of thought, I don't mean just a single thought "Oh what fine weather we're having today" but "Oh the weather's nice but that one cloud may be an indication of rain in which case I don't want to wear those boots that may stain if it does rain and I get them wet. But if they're waterproof and I do get them wet, it wouldn't matter." Then all of a sudden I think, "If all the puzzles in the world were a derivation of a single puzzle that someone invented a long, long time ago, would we ever be able to find that one source? I wonder if finding all the connecting links to puzzles would lead to that one puzzle."
More often than not, I'll completely and totally forget string of thought A, though this time around, I remembered it.
I also realized that I think thoughts without consciously knowing what they are. To give a hypothetical example, I'll think about the usefulness of soap because of the cleansing action of the bubbles and how because some people think that smearing soap on your hands without making it bubble will still be effective, they created foam soap. But then I'll think, is it really the bubbles that create the cleaning action on your hands? (btw, I don't know if this is true because I don't remember where I heard it so I could be wrong...) And all this time, I won't realize I'm thinking this until somehow, somewhere, I'll be talking to someone about it and remember this random thought I was having and I won't remember the context of it at all.
I wonder if a lot of people do that too. I realized people are much more similar than they realize (though there are obvious differences).
Sunday, January 1, 2012
3 things I want
1. A dslr camera. I want to take good pictures without trying that hard.
2. A treadmill. That way I have less of an excuse not to exercise.
3. Knee high boots. They're cute.
2. A treadmill. That way I have less of an excuse not to exercise.
3. Knee high boots. They're cute.
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