So much more than I'd like to admit, I'd definitely very self-conscious of what image I have (or lack there of). I honestly don't even know what kind of image I want to portray to others, yet I still worry (moreso than I'd like to admit) about what others think of me. Weird, huh?
I think that for me, it's always a constant battle of trying not to care yet tailoring my actions to those around me. I wonder, is that something that society has taught us to do or am I being overly worried about what others think? It's irritating. I don't want to care about what others think of me unless they're people who matter. How do you stop caring?
Meh! So it goes so it goes.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Work
So work's been really busy for me but thankfully I have a co-worker now that I can share all my work with.
There's a lot going on and these next couple days are going to be really bad but I don't mind.
I'm getting bored with myself but the unfortunate aspect of this is that I don't really have time to do anything about it so it sucks.
I've been sleeping early (thankfully) but in the end, I just don't do anything and sleep more. I've been trying to wake up early to like clean and do random chores but alas, it is not that easy. :\
Hm. Otherwise, my life as been pretty boring. The cherry blossoms have bloomed but I haven't really had a chance to enjoy them because I've been busy (and too lazy to make a trip all the way out to stare and enjoy their beauty. BLEH~ They lost their charm once I found out that they only come out for a couple weeks a year. It's annoying. Stupid Japanese anime overplayed it. hmph)
There's a lot going on and these next couple days are going to be really bad but I don't mind.
I'm getting bored with myself but the unfortunate aspect of this is that I don't really have time to do anything about it so it sucks.
I've been sleeping early (thankfully) but in the end, I just don't do anything and sleep more. I've been trying to wake up early to like clean and do random chores but alas, it is not that easy. :\
Hm. Otherwise, my life as been pretty boring. The cherry blossoms have bloomed but I haven't really had a chance to enjoy them because I've been busy (and too lazy to make a trip all the way out to stare and enjoy their beauty. BLEH~ They lost their charm once I found out that they only come out for a couple weeks a year. It's annoying. Stupid Japanese anime overplayed it. hmph)
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Always restless
I wonder what it is... :\
meh~
picked up painting... acrylics are fun to work with! I wish I had the space to set up an easel and all that nerdy stuff... but alas, I must live w/ the 'rents until my bills are paid... BLEH. I seriously considered moving out for the last month until I looked at how much of my school loans and stuff I had left. I didn't do anything in Korea! I just spent all my money on like... random crap. Like a cheese grater. I don't even have a cheese grater in the States! (actually, I bought two so that makes it worse) But then again, they weren't that expensive... but I also bought a lot of other useless junk. *sigh*~
Oh well. At least now that I'm getting paid more, I can actually REALLY start paying off all my loans.
I realized as of late how backwards I am. I've been living with my parents to cut down on living expenses, but I end up eating out or making my own food. I suppose the only upside is that I don't pay rent. If rent was like $200-300 (I really don't think I'll be able to find a place that cheap though -_-;;) then I think I'd move out. *sigh*~ alas, that is just a dream though.
meh~
picked up painting... acrylics are fun to work with! I wish I had the space to set up an easel and all that nerdy stuff... but alas, I must live w/ the 'rents until my bills are paid... BLEH. I seriously considered moving out for the last month until I looked at how much of my school loans and stuff I had left. I didn't do anything in Korea! I just spent all my money on like... random crap. Like a cheese grater. I don't even have a cheese grater in the States! (actually, I bought two so that makes it worse) But then again, they weren't that expensive... but I also bought a lot of other useless junk. *sigh*~
Oh well. At least now that I'm getting paid more, I can actually REALLY start paying off all my loans.
I realized as of late how backwards I am. I've been living with my parents to cut down on living expenses, but I end up eating out or making my own food. I suppose the only upside is that I don't pay rent. If rent was like $200-300 (I really don't think I'll be able to find a place that cheap though -_-;;) then I think I'd move out. *sigh*~ alas, that is just a dream though.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Japan and my new job
So I'm like really behind on this blog... not that I'm really keeping track but since I said I'd update on my trip to Japan, I'll keep it short and sweet (if I can).
On my way to Japan, I went snowboarding at one of the more famous ski resorts in Korea. On the first run, I broke a rib. I don't think it was all that serious, but they couldn't see whether or not it was really broken because my spine was in the way. I asked the doctor if I'd still be able to go to Japan and he said yes and prescribed some painkillers for me. :)
It was hard moving around too much so I took it easy. I had this entire itinerary planned but some of my plans fell through due to some poor planning (I didn't check what time the last boat left) so it was interesting.... I took an overnight boat to Fukuoka, didn't get to see much because of my injury, went to a hot springs twice (which helped a lot) and on my last night decided to go out. Found a random bar that just happened to be the last day before it shut down. Made some new friends then called it a day. (I still need to email them...)
Wished I had done more sightseeing but I dunno just chilling in the area was nice too. Tried to go to some famous temple but I had read the map wrong and was on the other side of the station.. -_-;; Meh~ All in all, I found it to be a good trip even though I didn't see much. Met some interesting people and got to experience hostel life (which was very nice btw).
I definitely want to move to Japan but I dunno, we'll see how my life plan works out. I think I'm going to try to make it happen soon. ^_^
Ok so that aside, I finally started working in the beginning of February and I really like my job. I work for the corporate office of an English academy and we're working on a vocabulary project/dictionary and all this curriculum stuff. I've been working long hours though but it's been helping me keep a regular schedule.
I've been getting restless though because I haven't been exercising. I'm probably going to start soon... hopefully. If I can find the time. ^_^
I might move out (I feel like I go through this every so often) but I'm going to aim for June 1st. We'll see how it actually works out though.
On my way to Japan, I went snowboarding at one of the more famous ski resorts in Korea. On the first run, I broke a rib. I don't think it was all that serious, but they couldn't see whether or not it was really broken because my spine was in the way. I asked the doctor if I'd still be able to go to Japan and he said yes and prescribed some painkillers for me. :)
It was hard moving around too much so I took it easy. I had this entire itinerary planned but some of my plans fell through due to some poor planning (I didn't check what time the last boat left) so it was interesting.... I took an overnight boat to Fukuoka, didn't get to see much because of my injury, went to a hot springs twice (which helped a lot) and on my last night decided to go out. Found a random bar that just happened to be the last day before it shut down. Made some new friends then called it a day. (I still need to email them...)
Wished I had done more sightseeing but I dunno just chilling in the area was nice too. Tried to go to some famous temple but I had read the map wrong and was on the other side of the station.. -_-;; Meh~ All in all, I found it to be a good trip even though I didn't see much. Met some interesting people and got to experience hostel life (which was very nice btw).
I definitely want to move to Japan but I dunno, we'll see how my life plan works out. I think I'm going to try to make it happen soon. ^_^
Ok so that aside, I finally started working in the beginning of February and I really like my job. I work for the corporate office of an English academy and we're working on a vocabulary project/dictionary and all this curriculum stuff. I've been working long hours though but it's been helping me keep a regular schedule.
I've been getting restless though because I haven't been exercising. I'm probably going to start soon... hopefully. If I can find the time. ^_^
I might move out (I feel like I go through this every so often) but I'm going to aim for June 1st. We'll see how it actually works out though.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Actually it was only two weeks
So I found out that I was only working for 2 weeks so this next week is like FREE. Obviously making less money but I learned several important lessons this week as well as several new things about myself:
1. Lesson planning is important.
2. I apparently can get by with very little sleep for quite a few days without collapsing. This has never happened to me before.
3. I need to be busy in order to get more done. This is an unfortunate truth because it means that when I'm not busy, I'm considerably less efficient. :\ I need to fix this.
4. I want to be an artist. Doesn't matter what kind. I wish I was better able to express myself.
That's all. I'm still tired and recovering. I can't wait until this next week is over. I'm going to go snowboarding and then head over to Japan. ^_^ v
1. Lesson planning is important.
2. I apparently can get by with very little sleep for quite a few days without collapsing. This has never happened to me before.
3. I need to be busy in order to get more done. This is an unfortunate truth because it means that when I'm not busy, I'm considerably less efficient. :\ I need to fix this.
4. I want to be an artist. Doesn't matter what kind. I wish I was better able to express myself.
That's all. I'm still tired and recovering. I can't wait until this next week is over. I'm going to go snowboarding and then head over to Japan. ^_^ v
Monday, December 21, 2009
Three crazy weeks X.x
So I didn't realize HOW crazy things would get until I went to work today.
I have a crazy schedule, but I'm also going to be making a decent amount of money (honestly, I think I could've pushed for more... :\) so I guess I won't complain. I think that having this kind of schedule made me realize that I don't want to part-time it. It's just too crazy with too much to take care of. I'd rather just work full-time at one place and call it a day.
I'm working at 3 different places and private tutoring. X.x Thankfully though, one of the places is only on Saturdays but I'm hoping to change it if I get the place I want to work at. If it all works out it all works out. If it doesn't, it doesn't. I just hope that I don't start banking everything on this one place because I could very well not get the job. I hope I do...
I have a crazy schedule, but I'm also going to be making a decent amount of money (honestly, I think I could've pushed for more... :\) so I guess I won't complain. I think that having this kind of schedule made me realize that I don't want to part-time it. It's just too crazy with too much to take care of. I'd rather just work full-time at one place and call it a day.
I'm working at 3 different places and private tutoring. X.x Thankfully though, one of the places is only on Saturdays but I'm hoping to change it if I get the place I want to work at. If it all works out it all works out. If it doesn't, it doesn't. I just hope that I don't start banking everything on this one place because I could very well not get the job. I hope I do...
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