Updates I guess?

So its been like months since I blogged (honestly haven't had the time - this time it wasn't laziness or a lack of anything to say...)

Not sure exactly but haven't been able to sleep (too restless for my own good... I need to sleep X.x)

I think I need to exercise to burn off this extra energy. Meh.

Work's been busy and I've been trying to cook healthy meals (chicken, vegetables, etc.) as well as sleep more (this has not been happening the last two weeks) and all this other like "healthy" stuff. I mean it's been working for the most part but I want to start really focusing on working out. It's not working as yet. Bleh. Hopefully next week will be a better week.

Went to Jeju Island with a visiting friend (that was nice) made some new friends and am getting out more (yay go me). I like Korea's jazz scene. Hope I can make it out to see that one famous bassist on Sat. We'll see.

There's a costume party this Sat and the theme is "stereotypes" so I'm going to go as a stereotypical goth (but I'm going to try to look like a hot stereotypical goth, not one those creepy fat looking ones). HEHE very excited. Sad that I don't have my leather jacket but I should be able to make do. ^_^ People are gonna stare at me in the subway and that's gonna be the whole point. Maybe I should hiss at them. :P (Yeah right I don't have the balls to do it)

Ok I'm rambling now. It's time for bed. G'night all.

Some girls have shoe fetishes

I think I have a book fetish. I didn't think it was too bad but I realized that the last like 3-4 times that I went (or even just a place that sells books - like Costco), I've walked out with at least 2-3 books. -_- And what's worse, is I haven't yet to read a majority of them. I don't know what it is. I'm interested so I pick it up but then I don't get around to it and buy more books. I don't have any space really for those books anymore and I've still to finish a good 6 volumes (I'm in the middle of all of them 'cept I don't think I'll ever get around to some of them - like I'm 1/3 of the way through the sound and the fury. I just don't think it's going to happen).

Hm. I must say though, there is a certain amount of allure to these books and for some reason, they seem more valuable here since there's a smaller range of books I can buy and they're usually ridiculously overpriced...

Meh. I guess I'll just stop buying books until I finish the ones that I have (except I have to buy Steig Larsson's newest book. Apparently it's coming into Korea next week. :D :D :D) he he he

So it goes, so it goes.

Fashion

So I decided to take the plunge.

I only feel myself getting older and I hate that phrase "youth is wasted on the young". I may be young but I'm not going to waste it (and honestly, comparatively, I could be considered "old"). Meh.

At any rate, I decided to explore, not care if I look like crap and overall try to take care of my appearance somewhat and find my "image". I honestly used to be somewhat wary of doing this because I felt like I would become superficial. The "Omg, where did you get that like lipstick? It's so like y'know, cute! I was like looking for that exact shade. And omigosh, I went to the mall yesterday...." (and so on) but perhaps I just need to make sure to keep true to myself and I think I'll be fine. I don't want to brand myself with one particular style simply because I feel like a multitude of styles should define someone but I still want to match or at least be aesthetically pleasing to the eye. Hm.

I figured Korea was the best place to experiment because there's such a wide range of fashion here and even if I don't match, I'll just be one of the many people here that clash like crazy. *shrug* so it goes.

Self-conscious

So much more than I'd like to admit, I'd definitely very self-conscious of what image I have (or lack there of). I honestly don't even know what kind of image I want to portray to others, yet I still worry (moreso than I'd like to admit) about what others think of me. Weird, huh?

I think that for me, it's always a constant battle of trying not to care yet tailoring my actions to those around me. I wonder, is that something that society has taught us to do or am I being overly worried about what others think? It's irritating. I don't want to care about what others think of me unless they're people who matter. How do you stop caring?

Meh! So it goes so it goes.

Work

So work's been really busy for me but thankfully I have a co-worker now that I can share all my work with.

There's a lot going on and these next couple days are going to be really bad but I don't mind.

I'm getting bored with myself but the unfortunate aspect of this is that I don't really have time to do anything about it so it sucks.

I've been sleeping early (thankfully) but in the end, I just don't do anything and sleep more. I've been trying to wake up early to like clean and do random chores but alas, it is not that easy. :\

Hm. Otherwise, my life as been pretty boring. The cherry blossoms have bloomed but I haven't really had a chance to enjoy them because I've been busy (and too lazy to make a trip all the way out to stare and enjoy their beauty. BLEH~ They lost their charm once I found out that they only come out for a couple weeks a year. It's annoying. Stupid Japanese anime overplayed it. hmph)

Always restless

I wonder what it is... :\

meh~

picked up painting... acrylics are fun to work with! I wish I had the space to set up an easel and all that nerdy stuff... but alas, I must live w/ the 'rents until my bills are paid... BLEH. I seriously considered moving out for the last month until I looked at how much of my school loans and stuff I had left. I didn't do anything in Korea! I just spent all my money on like... random crap. Like a cheese grater. I don't even have a cheese grater in the States! (actually, I bought two so that makes it worse) But then again, they weren't that expensive... but I also bought a lot of other useless junk. *sigh*~

Oh well. At least now that I'm getting paid more, I can actually REALLY start paying off all my loans.

I realized as of late how backwards I am. I've been living with my parents to cut down on living expenses, but I end up eating out or making my own food. I suppose the only upside is that I don't pay rent. If rent was like $200-300 (I really don't think I'll be able to find a place that cheap though -_-;;) then I think I'd move out. *sigh*~ alas, that is just a dream though.

Japan and my new job

So I'm like really behind on this blog... not that I'm really keeping track but since I said I'd update on my trip to Japan, I'll keep it short and sweet (if I can).

On my way to Japan, I went snowboarding at one of the more famous ski resorts in Korea. On the first run, I broke a rib. I don't think it was all that serious, but they couldn't see whether or not it was really broken because my spine was in the way. I asked the doctor if I'd still be able to go to Japan and he said yes and prescribed some painkillers for me. :)

It was hard moving around too much so I took it easy. I had this entire itinerary planned but some of my plans fell through due to some poor planning (I didn't check what time the last boat left) so it was interesting.... I took an overnight boat to Fukuoka, didn't get to see much because of my injury, went to a hot springs twice (which helped a lot) and on my last night decided to go out. Found a random bar that just happened to be the last day before it shut down. Made some new friends then called it a day. (I still need to email them...)

Wished I had done more sightseeing but I dunno just chilling in the area was nice too. Tried to go to some famous temple but I had read the map wrong and was on the other side of the station.. -_-;; Meh~ All in all, I found it to be a good trip even though I didn't see much. Met some interesting people and got to experience hostel life (which was very nice btw).

I definitely want to move to Japan but I dunno, we'll see how my life plan works out. I think I'm going to try to make it happen soon. ^_^

Ok so that aside, I finally started working in the beginning of February and I really like my job. I work for the corporate office of an English academy and we're working on a vocabulary project/dictionary and all this curriculum stuff. I've been working long hours though but it's been helping me keep a regular schedule.

I've been getting restless though because I haven't been exercising. I'm probably going to start soon... hopefully. If I can find the time. ^_^

I might move out (I feel like I go through this every so often) but I'm going to aim for June 1st. We'll see how it actually works out though.