How do you know?

How do you know he's going to do that?
How did you know she was going to do that?

"I just know."

Could that be considered faith? Just because you know that someone is going to do something doesn't mean you're a prophet of any sort. It doesn't mean anything, really, right? Basically it means that you believe you know someone well enough to be able to know what they're going to do at a certain point in time. You just know.

I think faith works the same way. You just know. It isn't easy to explain - I mean I feel like that's what the past 2000 years have been about. Try to explain this unseen thing and deconstructing it in a way that makes sense. That's why there's so many explanations and that's why only some people understand those explanations. It's like explaining an experience to someone who's never experienced it before. People who've been through that experience understand, but someone who hasn't will never be able to fully understand what it is like until they've experienced it themselves. I feel like adulthood kind of works that way. You explain to kids that being an adult means being responsible and paying bills and doing boring stuff. However, I know plenty of adults that do all that that aren't really adults. So then you talk about maturity. Being an adult means acting mature in certain types of situations. But then again, that isn't quite the case either, is it? There are so many petty people in the world. Then, the explanation becomes "Well it's complicated. You won't understand until you become one."

I think Christian faith is also a gift. When people talk about being Christian and about believing that a stange man who had some strange ideas came, lived a perfect life in the eyes of God, died and was resurrected is honestly one that's hard to believe. People understand the concept behind Christianity - that it's based off of love, that these strange people sometimes will try to make you believe in what they believe in, yet I sometimes feel like they don't really know. There's so much more to the religion than just fluffy things about love and saving others. There are some beautiful nuances and resonances that make it what it is and for me, that make it a truth that even if I wanted to, I can't deny.

I find aetheists fascinating precisely for that reason. Why does science exist if we believe that everything just sort of happened by chance? Why do we seek to find how things work? Isn't that try to find order? If there really is no order, shouldn't chaos reign? Why do things work? Doesn't the fact that order exists (a seed must be put in soil and watered in order for it to grow) that negates the idea of chaos?

Eh. Again, I've overgeneralized, but I suppose that's just where I stand.