Feels like I'm swimming in a pool that's slowly drowning me.
Gaaaah. I suppose it makes sense because my workload has been increasing and now I've hit midterm season. There's so much to do, so much to take care of and yet I stop. I want the world to stop and perhaps that's the reason that I stop. I'm not sure what it is. I suppose it could be related to stress. Or it just is stress.
At times like this, I wish I had infinite energy, an insatiable amount of motivation and the time to match. I could do all the things that run through my head at once.
I suppose with responsibility, there comes that suppression of desire. "I want to do this, but I need to do that."
Why does that suck so much? Why can't "I want to do this" be just that? "I want to do this and I need to do it." I suppose that although that's what everyone seeks, a vast majority accept it as a reality that they cannot obtain.
I wonder if I'm being foolish in continuing to pursue that ideal.
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