A better me

I think I like surrounding myself with people who make me a better person. There are different "categories" of people, though I don't actively put my close people in them (or at least I don't think I do) and I like people who make me want to become a better person. I think that it boils down to life choices and moral values and how it manifests into the person's personality and demeanor.

Some people are leeches, they take what they can from you with little to offer and honestly, I find these types of people exhausting. I don't try to cater to them but somehow it becomes a relationship like that and in the end, I just avoid them altogether.

There are also friendships where nothing is gained and nothing is lost. They're honestly really boring. They exist because of proximity and convenience and they lack depth. I find these to be uncomfortable. They bother me because they feel obligatory more than anything.

I realized I seek out good/deep conversations and I seek out people who are able to draw that out of me. Sometimes I can go into it if I'm in a thoughtful mood, but other times, it's the person I'm with that allows me to delve into the recesses of my brain while picking their brain. I'm not saying that it's all about me and I would hope that I am able to somehow affect the person in a positive way as well but I realize that my relationships are based on how I feel around them and how I feel about the person.

That isn't to say that I don't hang out with people who don't better me - there are all sorts of people out there. I just gravitate towards people who do because they get me to think and as a result, I feel like I am improved and hopefully I do the same for them as well.

Hm. This feels half-baked.

I just like people with depth and people who are able to create depth in a relationship.