Poetry

Poetry distills the essence of moments, I think.

When you're trying to capture exactly what happened, I think poetry is the best way to capture it. It might not make sense to other people but if you can capture the moment whether it has any beauty or whatever in it, then you've captured the moment in writing.

I think the most difficult part of it is that in order to do that, the poem must be revisited multiple times in different situations to ensure that the moment is properly captured. If it is able to evoke the same memory from these re-visitations, then it has been properly written.

And I think it should be beautifully written. I wonder if that's possible now. Has creativity run dry or have people just become lazy in trying to find different constructs to the same experiences everyone has gone through in life?

I like poetry. It's simple yet so deep.

Y'know what I like about being in school?

It brings out the thoughtfulness in me. The part of my brain that thinks interesting thoughts. I think that's why I want to be an academic. The stimulation of thought. It makes me more interesting. It makes my thoughts more interesting to me. I wonder if I become more interesting to others because of it. I hope so.

[edit] Oct. 3. 2012

Oh how quickly things change with midterms! I like how my attitude did a 180 when things started getting busy.

On a different note, with the whole creativity thing, I realized part of what it is, is resonances of the modern era (Hemingway among others). They simplified writing and then there were (still are, I think?) artistic movements with ideas like "form follows function" that I think really seeped into the writing. I mean there are obviously other factors that play into what writing and art has become today, but perhaps it is for this reason that we don't seek beauty solely for aesthetic purposes.  How functional is it, how accessible to the public, how much is it worth? All these things are what writers, artists and musicians take into account when doing any creative work, is it not? One thing with artists of any kind is the idea that if it cannot be used in any way, if you cannot turn your art into a viable source of income, it is useless. I feel very much this way when I practice any of the instruments I have a superficial interest in. When I draw. I know that my music and my art will never be good enough to be publicized. Ever. So does that make my hobbies useless? Is it wrong to want to pursue these things despite their seemingly lack in worth? I think that there are many people who do exactly that (pursue hobbies for the heck of it, knowing it'll never become their day job), I just feel unproductive doing it. I guess I have a hard time justifying such "unproductive" things.

Raindrops falling on my head

Not quite what I'm going through but the tune matches my mood.

It's what good conversation'll do to me. ^_^

Venting

Omg, seriously.

I hate sloppy work. I understand mistakes happen. An occasional typo, a small mistake here or there, that's fine. But seriously? I have to clean up that mess?

I'm just pissed because I said that mistakes add up. The response? "I'm sorry for making those small mistakes."

I'm sorry but in this line of work, those "small" mistakes reflect really badly on you. And on our company. It makes you look sloppy, negates what the teachers are trying to teach and defeats the purpose of the work we're doing.

Really now.

Seriously annoyed. I hate having to clean up after people. I guess it's because I feel like I'm not responsible for it but I still have to mop up the mess. If it's your job, do it right. I hate having to fix those kinds of mistakes. I mean I make mistakes. I make plenty of mistakes, but not these. I think what my problem is, is that I know I can do a better job. What sucks even more, is that perhaps I'm the reason that the job isn't getting done properly. What am I not conveying to her that needs to be conveyed? Am I just that much of a failure as her employer?

Is it bad that I just want to have her fired now? Because she can't do her job? After the second project?

I need to give her more of a chance, I think. But when is enough?

I guess since I didn't do a good enough job of training her, I need to take responsibility for my actions. Perhaps I did bring it onto myself. The student is only as good as the teacher, they say, right? I'm doing something wrong. How depressing. Ugh, I hate such situations.