Oh the horror

I read my old posts, chuckle at myself because I think I'm interesting to myself and then stop myself in horror for thinking that way. -_-;;

Things that don't make sense about me

I think anime is a waste of time.

Yes, I watch copious amounts of anime but in the end, I don't feel like I gain as much as I watch.

So today I wasted 4 hours on youtube and 9gag and various other waste-of-time websites. And then I "regretted" that time because I could've spent it watching anime. Which in many ways doesn't make sense (Why would you want to do something else that you also consider a waste of time? Wouldn't you rather spend it productively?)

I suppose it makes logical sense (to me) because if I was going to waste time anyway (something I don't like doing but do all the time) I wished I could've done it with something I like a lot more. I mean in the end, a waste of time is a waste of time so why not waste time "productively"? :P

I realized in this sense, I'm still such a kid. I don't care if I'm soon going to enter my late 20s (geez I feel ancient), I still suck at life.

I don't care how late it is or what I have to do the next day, if I want to stay up, I will.

If a little kid is being bratty at me, I'll be bratty right back. Those little brats...

I still can't keep track of time.

I suppose in some ways this could easily turn into one of those stupid new years resolution things, but let's not go there.

Oh well, such is life. Hopefully there will be more improvements in the future.

I suppose it's not the best of posts for Christmas, but I'm glad it is Christmas! Christmas is awesome! :)

Hopefully next year, I'll be somewhere cooler!

Merry Christmas everyone!

Yay for Jesus~

God's love

Too true!

"God loves you in spite of the way you are!" - from here

This guy, Mark Gungor is hilarious. But he also speaks a lot of truth.

Here's one of his clips (on my fb as well :P):

Blessed

Have you ever realized how blessed you are? I mean it in the Christian sense, but for non-Christians as well - have you ever noticed just how much you have? I know it's past Thanksgiving and the whole being thankful bit's kind of done and over with, but I can't help feeling that I've just been so blessed. Do I have anything in particular to be thankful for? I have no job, no love prospects, no real hope for the future (especially in this economy) and yet, I'm happy.

Honestly, if you think about society nowadays, there's a lot to be thankful for. We live in a society where if you run out of food, you just run to the grocery store to get more. Where more people don't want war than do. Where the government (however unreliable it seems) is pretty stable (yes, it's going downhill, but people are still somehow making a living, are they not?). Yes, there are many people who do not have enough, who want more, who can't afford to buy groceries, etc. but we live in a society where people like this help out those who need it.

In the end, if you focus on what you don't have, there's no end. When you realize what you do have, all of a sudden, the world doesn't seem like such a terrible place.

I suppose this entry is pretty fluffy because I mean if you really want to make a counterargument, I would probably wouldn't be able to say much in return. In the end, my point is that there's a lot to be thankful for in this world. It's all a matter of how one looks at it, right?

Can't sleep. And a good quote.

The quote's good so I shall post that first:

"Let us eat and drink
for tomorrow we die."

(it's from at least two places in the Bible - Jeremiah and 1 Corinthians).

I just thought it was a cool verse because I mean it has the end of the worlds feel to it and a very pagan feel (if misinterpreted or taken out of context like right now) but just the length and profundity of it just made me stop and literally "kyaaaaa" (like that sound you make after taking a refreshing drink of water when you're really thirsty) because I just liked it!

I think I like it because it's has the don't-wait-do-everything-now-life-is-short-carpe-diem kind of feel to it.

Anyway, obviously this won't be the case for many and future planning is something I'm trying to learn (and failing at quite well) but I think it's kind of like what my friend told me his motto was - memento mori (remember death) because it is closer than we think. It's that age-old idea of "what if you really were to die tomorrow?" kind of thing. Did you really live the life you wanted to? For me, the answer is still no.

So I hope I live longer to achieve what I want to achieve.

Moving on to insomnia.

I took a 2 1/2 hr nap from 8:30-11pm. I don't know why I ever think it's a good idea to take a nap so late at night (or why, when I force myself to wake up, I think it's a good idea to get out of bed and be "productive"). I never can go back to sleep. And if it's morning and the same thing happens, I have absolutely no trouble falling back asleep.

It makes no sense.

Peanut Butter

Because milk is made for calves and not for humans, they say that dairy is "unnatural" and bad for humans. Although there are conflicting studies about this, from a "natural" point of view this kind of makes sense. But then again, so would eating meat raw, because that's what's "natural." (Though I vaguely remember reading an article about like one other animal species that "cooked" their food).... I mean if you think about it, the whole idea of cooking food is weird from this "natural" point of view. Electricity is weird. Staying up late is weird (well it's been proven that it's unhealthy in many many ways but that's another story).

So in the end, I don't think what's considered "natural" dictates what's good for the human body.

Just because the rate of osteoporosis in higher in America where the milk consumption is higher doesn't necessitate correlation (similar to how there is no correlation between higher ice cream sales and higher rates of crime in the summer).

I mean if you think about it, a lot of people are allergic to peanuts. Does that mean that people should stop eating peanuts (just like a vast majority of people are lactose-intolerant)? Is there something about peanuts that humans naturally can't process that means that we shouldn't eat it? There are apparently many uses for peanuts and many health benefits that come with eating peanuts so this is not necessarily true.

But then again, this is my "logical" reasoning trying to justify eating all the cheese and ice cream I eat. And all the milk and eggs I use in my cooking. Meh!

Some things unfortunately never change

Well, I suppose things just change at a snail's pace. It's actually kind of irritating how little has changed since I came to Korea. It's literally like whattheheck?! (exactly said without the spaces between the words).

I think the only thing that's changed is I cook more, and I read the Bible/pray more. I mean even looking at my little "List of what I want to accomplish while I'm not working" list from like 2009 (and posted again a couple months later), not much has changed.


1. Study for the GRE
2. Read
3. Write
4. Sleep regularly
5. Work out
6. See Seoul

So I guess I did okay with 1-3, and 6 (more or less... kind of... sort of........) but I've pretty much never slept regularly for a very very long time. I think it happened once last year because I was so into my job that I would sleep early in order to be in better shape to go to work in the morning. It's kind of sad how inefficient I am at sleeping. -_-

I stopped working out. I'm getting to my unforgivably fat stage where it's uncomfortable to sit and slump because my stomach fat folds over on itself. It's gross.

But yeah! I mean basically... I still don't do anything regularly and I still have no self-discipline whatsoever. I don't know. I suppose it's gotten a little better but in the end, I feel like little progress has been made.