Being healthy and staying fit

Been trying to be healthy (basically trying to be more mindful about it - I mean I'm not perfect; I enjoy my cupcakes and pizza every once in a while) and I realized that it did pay off. :D I mean not just with the eating but I've been exercising fairly regularly (I guess?) and I'm not as out of shape as I thought I was!

And I can still do a back walkover.

That's right. :D

Bahaha.

I am a donkey

I suppose, rather, that I want to be able to motivate myself very much using this method.

Or rather than wanting to, I have decided to, I guess is the right way of saying it.

"I will finish X before doing Y."

I think the problem that I have is that I turn X into this unmanageable amount of work that I can't possibly do, and then I give up.

"I will finish reading 600 pages in 2 hours before eating dinner."

Of course I get hungry, give up, and then lose all motivation to continue. It seems foolish, but for some reason I've kept doing this.

If I must, I will become a donkey to move forward!

Onward and upward, as they say!

(Or perhaps downward in this case....)

Bigger isn't better nor is more worth it

People don't like obesity. There's definitely an interesting campaign to reclaim beauty for larger people but honestly, I can't always sympathize with fat people. I've gone on a rant before here,

I guess to look at the issue from a different angle is the idea that more is always better. I mean yes, there is a certain amount of money that can be saved in buying in bulk, but what it is and whether or not it's really worth it really needs to be examined.

For someone whose apartment is the size of a pea (like me), I can't afford to have a lot of things that take up a lot of space. Non-perishables, like soap, toilet paper, facial tissue, and the like are some of the things that I buy in bulk, but I wonder, with all the clutter in my room, what am I sacrificing?

I have to find a place to store it and remember that I have it at that place. I think with the stuff that you use on a daily basis, it's fine, but with things that aren't used very frequently that I think I run across issues. Light bulbs for example. Lately, they last forever. Do I really need 5 of them because it's cheaper per bulb? Does that mean I'll be lugging it around with me everywhere I move because I saved $0.15 per bulb?

If the thing is something that I really don't use, the fact that the thing takes up space and then I have to remember where I put the dang thing becomes a problem. I bought a desk lamp when I went to college. That's more than 12 years ago. IKEA was selling the replacement bulbs so I bought one in case it went out.

It's only just starting to go out now (mind you, I didn't use the thing for about 5 years in between while I was traveling) and I have no idea where the dang replacement bulb is. Now how useful is that really?

I mean, I suppose I could do better with an organizational schema for all the things I have, but I think the point is, it's not just the physical space it takes up, but the mental space required to keep track of such things. Eventually, one accumulates a lot of crap that one really doesn't need. It's taxing on the brain to remember one has all those things and where all of it is.

Eh. I think I just need to organize my room and my thoughts (for the upcoming papers that are due).

Dreams

I found an old, old dream diary I kept incredibly sporadically from 2005-2013 (not bad, actually). I just added 2 new entries, so I guess now, it's 10 years old.

I had some interesting dreams. One of the shorter ones goes like this:

"11/9/09

I think I had two dreams (well multiple dreams) but I only remember that one was quite mundane and the other was about pteradactyls."

I clearly don't know how to spell pterodactyl (had to google that).

Others are more detailed (and one is frustratingly unfinished). I think I'm going to pick this up again.