Is life about distracting yourself from the mundane? Take away all the things you do on a daily basis - the boring, the same and the repetitive and what are you left with?
Why are people so bored? Why do people want to travel? Why do people want adventure? I don't think I'm the only one that feels this way. For the lack of anything better to do, to think about, people indulge in a variety of activities - whether it be good for them or detrimental to their overall health.
For example, think of women who have a love interest. They obsess about this guy. A lot of times, the guy is only half-assedly interested and shows that he is, but these women and her friends psychoanalyze his every move, action and words, construing and misconstruing it in every single possible way and thinking about every single permutation of what he could possibly be thinking. When in the end, it really is what that book title was about: He's Just Not That Into You. Really. It's ridiculous. But do you suppose it's because they have nothing better or interesting to think about that their conversation ends up revolving around this? Sometimes I feel like a lot of women obsess not because of the object of their obsession as much as a lack of anything else to obsess about. I mean if you have nothing better to do, will you not focus on whatever seems to be the most interesting at the time?
People who want to travel. They want to get out of that bubble they call everyday life. Is traveling so interesting because it's so different from what their normal lives are? Because it's interesting? Why do people travel? I'm one of the people that fall into this category, I think. Life can be pretty boring. I like traveling because it's interesting. I don't have a particularly boring every day life, but I like traveling for a change of pace and scenery. I like being in a new environment and getting to know the people and area around me. It's different. It's exciting. I like seeing different cultures and the reactions of people to me as a person. I like the transience of traveling. There's less consequence when traveling in the sense that more likely than not, I will never see these people again. A lot of people take this opportunity to be assholes or to do as they please, but for me, it means that I can be totally and completely giving, without having to worry about them coming back to me for favors. This is my irresponsibility speaking because I hate it when people rely on me and ask me for favors. I like helping people, but only when they don't expect me to help. Weird, huh?
Addictions. For me it'd be anime, for others, drugs, for others, sex, yet others, food - the list goes on. Is it to escape reality? Is life really that boring, that unexciting to have to seek these things out, to feel something different? I think what's more difficult to overcome than depression or anger (not that these are easy to overcome - that's a whole other story) is apathy. I mean at least with depression or anger, there is some kind of feeling - if you channel it differently, it can turn into something positive. It's like Newton's laws of motion. If something is moving, at least it can be moved somewhere. With apathy, it isn't moving so to move it requires that much more force. I'm not belittling depression or anger at all because I know how difficult it is to get out of it, it's just that I feel like perhaps it's harder to get someone who's completely inured to feeling to feel again.
Perhaps this is why people seek some kind of stimulation through whatever they're interested or obsessed with.
Is it really just a question of fulfillment? Does it mean that that many people in the world are not finding fulfillment in their lives that they have to find it through some kind of external stimulation? Why is it that people have to feel fulfilled? To what end?
I suppose then we get into that age-old question of "what is the meaning of life?" and all that other stuff. Not something I particularly want to get into at this point. It's just that people obsess. Why? I know right now, it's because I'm bored. So I interest myself with other things. Then I'm not bored and I stop obsessing. So does it really just come down to channeling? To what? Why?
Eh. I need to study. That's life. (But exactly what is life?)
Such is the exploration of these useless things called thoughts.
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I just realized, what about one's obsession with music or dance? Or the arts? Is it fulfillment or self-expression? When does it matter that it's different? Is this also an exploration of interest and excitement? Is it an expression of the changes/movement in one's life?
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