Can't sleep. And a good quote.

The quote's good so I shall post that first:

"Let us eat and drink
for tomorrow we die."

(it's from at least two places in the Bible - Jeremiah and 1 Corinthians).

I just thought it was a cool verse because I mean it has the end of the worlds feel to it and a very pagan feel (if misinterpreted or taken out of context like right now) but just the length and profundity of it just made me stop and literally "kyaaaaa" (like that sound you make after taking a refreshing drink of water when you're really thirsty) because I just liked it!

I think I like it because it's has the don't-wait-do-everything-now-life-is-short-carpe-diem kind of feel to it.

Anyway, obviously this won't be the case for many and future planning is something I'm trying to learn (and failing at quite well) but I think it's kind of like what my friend told me his motto was - memento mori (remember death) because it is closer than we think. It's that age-old idea of "what if you really were to die tomorrow?" kind of thing. Did you really live the life you wanted to? For me, the answer is still no.

So I hope I live longer to achieve what I want to achieve.

Moving on to insomnia.

I took a 2 1/2 hr nap from 8:30-11pm. I don't know why I ever think it's a good idea to take a nap so late at night (or why, when I force myself to wake up, I think it's a good idea to get out of bed and be "productive"). I never can go back to sleep. And if it's morning and the same thing happens, I have absolutely no trouble falling back asleep.

It makes no sense.