Writing essays

I wish essays would just flow out of my fingers onto the screen.

I can see the essay, the general structure and organization, but it's just so freaking hard for me to word the dang thing. There's flow to take into consideration, the general strategy in presenting my argument, then there's whether or not I'm actually making logical sense. Gaaah.

I feel like I put too much pressure on myself when I'm writing these essays. It sucks because I know my professors have higher expectations of me. They know that I already have a degree and that I'm supposed to know far more than I actually do. I see things in the literature that classmates are only beginning to see - I'm not tooting my own horn as much as simply stating a reality. I see these things because I've already been to college - that experience alone speaks for my ability to analyze at least a tiny bit better.

Gah. I've been stuck on and off this whole week. X.x