I am a donkey

I suppose, rather, that I want to be able to motivate myself very much using this method.

Or rather than wanting to, I have decided to, I guess is the right way of saying it.

"I will finish X before doing Y."

I think the problem that I have is that I turn X into this unmanageable amount of work that I can't possibly do, and then I give up.

"I will finish reading 600 pages in 2 hours before eating dinner."

Of course I get hungry, give up, and then lose all motivation to continue. It seems foolish, but for some reason I've kept doing this.

If I must, I will become a donkey to move forward!

Onward and upward, as they say!

(Or perhaps downward in this case....)