Quote from one of my other blogs

"I like how my only audience is the future me. Pretty cool (and I know you're thinking the same thing, future me.)"

This is so true. I feel like I don't know myself at all sometimes and then at other times, I know myself so well. I don't know why but I feel like other people are more "self-aware" than I am. Sometimes, I don't realize I'm stressed out until I get moody. And that's usually when I start snapping at people. (Then I realize, oh. I must be stressed out.) Is that weird?

I think that's why when they say that God knows best or whatever, I wholeheartedly can agree because I don't know what's best for me. I mean if you think about it, no one knows what's best for them because the whole idea of "what's best for someone" has to do with knowing the future, does it not? I mean aside from the obvious (eating healthy is best for you), it's like doing something is "best for so-and-so" because it'll help them with their career (or like "is for the best" would be the other phrase) is what a lot of people say but really, what if they decide to not pursue that career? Or what if they die the next day? If that's the case, then wouldn't it have been better to choose something where they could've really relished life/spent time with their loved ones? I mean granted, for the most part, there's a reason that people can say these things, because not many people go through major career changes, but how can you really say that?

I say it too without giving it much thought but I suppose its an interesting point to ponder.

I like to think that people who think they know what's best for others based on their vast knowledge of the future shouldn't be so hasty to impose their thoughts on others. I mean the whole idea of "what's best for someone" or what's "for the best" really is just a societal construct. I don't like societal constructs. I'd rather screw myself over in the future so that I can live the life I want to live.

The only thing is, knowing the trends of society, will I truly not regret taking the path that everyone took? Once I come to terms with that, I'm really going to travel the world.

If I don't, then I will forever be chained to one area, forever wondering whether or not I made the right decision. Gross. I don't want to do that.