Getting better at updates?

I think I blog the most when I shouldn't be (like right now because its 3:30 in the morning and I'm still at work because I have to finish this project). -_-;; Maybe this is why I blogged so much in high school.

I don't know if this is lame of me or not, but I find my writing to be relatively compelling. Not like UBER compelling, just, pretty compelling. I like it. My writing style contains a pretty decent mix of like, nerdiness and ... well in my opinion, wit. I mean, I never thought I was witty, but I like some of the stupid illustrations I make. And then I chuckle to myself. At my own terrible writing.

Sad, isn't it?

Someone pointed this out to me and I never realized it, but it's true. I have to "ready myself" to do something. Like, I have to mentally prepare myself to leave or like do something (like go running) so if I'm not "mentally prepared," I don't do it. That's why it (apparently) takes me so long to go running. I think this is true! But if that's the case, then I would lack spontaneity, and for some odd reason, I have that. So does that mean I'm contradictory? (or whatever the word is? I don't like how that sounds but I'm going to keep going because it takes too long to think of a better word). I think that one mistake that many people make is that if they're a certain way, there's no way they can be the "other" way. Like for me, if I have to mentally prepare myself to do something (even something as simple as going running) then how can I be spontaneous? I feel like people can't be described with one set of words. Kind of like how there's one thought process that people will associate you with when in reality there's a branch of thought processes that spread out from that one thought process. And thus, people are misunderstood.

Apparently I look cold and selfish when people who don't know me look at me when I'm not smiling. (Like, really? So I try to smile but it ends up looking kind of awkward. Like this: :] rather than :))...

Oh well. I'm learning to stop caring but it's hard. *shrug* So it goes, so it goes.

I REALLY want to go snowboarding. However, so as not to repeat last year, I need to workout kind of a lot before I go. Or I'm probably going to break another bone. -_-;;

Anyway, that's pretty much it for now. JAPAN hopefully next week. *Hopefully* Crossing fingers and praying.